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Tuesday, December 26th, 2006
3:21 pm
College life
So, college has been a nice experience for me. Especially Jesse

But I find myself missing the old days. Ash, Jimmy, and even Paige But especially Craig

I love writing and I think I have found my calling. I still love music and art but writing.... so rewarding.

I better go lots of homework And a Date

Later. Ellie.
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
9:13 am
Topic in theatrical_muse
I am little confused about the term monogamy. Does that mean a committed relationship where you only sleep with one person? Does exclude the idea of an open relationship? Or are open relationships different?

Whatever.

Personally I think I am too young to worry about things like monogamy. I tried to have a grown up and committed relationship. That was dumb. I am too young. He broke my heart and taught me a valuable lesson.

I should be having fun. I should meet lots of people. I don’t want to meet lots of people. I just want Craig

I make a lot of jokes about Manny Santos but you know what? Manny ahs the right idea. Try relationships with different guys and se which one is best for you. What am I saying Manny is a slut?

The idea of being tied to one person at age 17 is ludicrous, right? Unless it is the right person. Maybe you can find that person at age 17 I did

I am so confused.
Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
12:44 pm
Topic # 138 in theatrical_muse
Everyone at school thinks because I wear black a lot that I am into magic and voodoo For the record- I don’t believe in magic nor do I believe in ghost.

I mean, is there any real proof that ghost exists? No. Non-at all. The fact that people Ghost hunt and such is ridiculous. Why would I sit outside in the cold with cameras and spells and wait for some transparent whiner to come and visit me? That is just silly.

Not that they even exist. Are we even sure humans have a soul. I personally believe that when we die we are gone. We get put in the ground and that is it- end of the line.

So- Spirits, whatever. If they are like ghost-which they must be, then they don’t exist. Not real and I refuse to let anything fake scare me.

Why am I even talking about this? Marco believes in ghost. But Marco is religious and believes a lot of things that aren’t true. *smirks *

This is dumb.
Tuesday, July 25th, 2006
3:17 pm
Topic #v 136 in theatrical_muse
What does not kill us makes us stronger Ellie reminded herself as she cleaned up the apartment she shared with Sean. She had to know this wouldn’t last-for goodness sakes she was only 17 years old. The relationships you form in high school aren’t the ones that last forever-why did she even believe Sean would stay.

Why because you loved him and you needed to feel loved. Ellie thought and then laughed. Sean had been the first person to really care about her after the cutting incident. He saved her from herself.

Everyone was apparently very worried when they found out Sean left-even Paige, self-centered Paige came to see her. No one said it-but Ellie knew, they all thought she would start cutting again. Every time she spoke to someone there eyes found the way to her arms -searching for the telltale scars.

To be completely honest she worried at first too. The first night she was alone she wondered if she were strong enough to not hurt herself anymore. And much to her relief she was-she really was strong enough to make it alone.

The past had been overwhelming and she made a lot of mistakes- but she learned from the mistakes and the pain made her stronger.

Ellie smiled as she threw the dishrag back in the sink and said aloud, “What does not kills us truly does make us stronger”
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